Thursday, August 4
i don't know why i'm so blind sometimes. and so, so incredibly selfish.
our maid's been around for a couple of months.. i used to wonder if she didn't get bored cooped up at home all day since she didn't want any off days.. and she asked for my magazines to read. just now during dinner, i asked my mother if she thought mary got bored staying at home by herself. she called mary out and asked her, but mary didn't seem to know how to give a politically correct answer. i mentioned to my mother that maybe it would be nice to take mary out to watch a movie and maybe shop over the national day break. later when i went into the kitchen mary said, ' you know, about what you asked me just now.. how would you feel if you stayed in your room for a week?' i guess there's something about the way she said it, but i couldn't meet her eyes. she's coming to church with us this week though, and she seems okay with the movie idea even though she doesn't have any fancy clothes here. must remember to tell her she can play with page if she wants to.
i wonder why all the teachers hate our class. okay fine i don't really wonder. if i were them, i would too. shit. history written assignment tomorrow. i bet i'll do horribly and get picked on by mdm tay again. sense of impending doom. i just
can't get history. the whole approach. and no one taking history seems to know exactly what the approach is either, it's just something they've been trained to do since secondary school while i was happily doing king of the castle. oh wonderful life. i shall ask suzanna for help on sunday in church. days like these i miss my triple science days. life was a whole lot more straightforward then huh. or am i only dreaming?
who do you love? who do you need? you're messing up my life.. wasting all my time.. who do you love? what do you feel? stop playing with my heart, you're tearing me apart.. am i the one who can make you fly up above? is it me who can take you higher than you're dreaming of? now who do you love? --> moffats.
it must've been love.
7:46 pm
xoxo
